It’s supposed to be 70 degrees outside today, which would make it the warmest since the winter started. Spring has always been one of my favorite seasons because that means summer is around the bend.

Now that THAT’s out of the way…

I’m troubled today, as I was yesterday. A family member who lives in another state was served with a search warrant, was raided and is presumably going to be charged with a number of serious crimes. I can’t express the level of disappointment I’m feeling toward this person.

Of course I’m the first person that is called because I seem to have become the most responsible…don’t ask me how that happened. I literally had to sit down when I heard the news and I have no doubt that I was in a bit of shock right after hearing of the raid. Of course it’s my fucking job to clean everything up…well, as much as it can be cleaned up. I guess it’s hard to clean up jail time eh?

Guess where my potential house seed money is going to be spent? HAHA. What a fucking pain in the ass.

But…it’s not something that I can wash my hands of…it is a family member, no matter what happened. Unfortunately it’s against the law to beat up a family member…because I think that’s in order. I am many emotions right now. Angry, Disappointed, Shocked, Sad, Ashamed, Embarrassed, you name it. This person KNEW what was going on and knew it was against the law and they kept doing it KNOWING the consequences. KNOWING that it would devastate their character with the family. It boggles my mind how this happens.

I’m strong and I’m steady. I know I’ll be fine…it’s just the level of bullshit that I’m going to have wade through in the next few months that’s irritating me.

MiH

• Van Halen – Unchained
• Van Halen – Best of Both Worlds
• The Cult – Love Removal Machine
• Johnny Cash – I’ve been everywhere