I’m funny when it comes to friends.

As I’ve posted before, I’m getting married next August 22nd and I’ve been making a list of people to invite.  It’s interesting to actually have to write down how many friends I have because the number was smaller than I thought it would be.  There was also a surprising number of friends that I’ve simply grown away from over the last decade.  For some of those friends distance was a good thing, but for a lot of them I had no explanation as to why I didn’t “know” them anymore.

For two friends (married) it was obvious…they moved about an hour away.  I had visited them a few times but ultimately I couldn’t travel down often enough to really maintain a friendship and I eventually let their calls go to voicemail.  I’d eventually catch up with them but was happier to play phone tag instead of really being friends.  There are other friends that I had through a relationship that had ended 5 years ago…and I really like these people!  They were my friends…but due to the circumstance I just grew away from them.  It’s been so long since I’ve spoken to them there’s almost an aversion to initiating contact…what’s that all about?

Then there is the fierce anti-social streak I’ve got.  I pretty much segregate myself at work by not going out to lunch all the time and not participating in some of the social events.  I will say though, that I’ve been to a couple of social/work events and I’ve had a great time…but I could certainly improve on that front.  I absolutely HATE parties for me or any event that will spotlight me in any way…that’s why I’m a tad anxious about my wedding day.

I’m really going to try and go outside myself this year and try to be more social.  Yeah…it’s a pain in the ass…but what they heck!

MiH