It’s Monday and I’m muddling along.

I’m trying to understand myself a little better and trying to get myself out of this funk. I’m still quite smitten regarding Scout and I’ve been trying to understand and accept that situation. It still doesn’t make sense to me why I’m so upset about this. How could I be so emotionally invested in something when it’s clear her investment was minimal if non-existant.

I guess my lucid dreams have a lot to do with it. Those dreams are so real…and definitely something I bought in to. Putting the cart before the horse was part of the problem I guess.

I still wake up every morning thinking I may get an email from her…but I know it’s not coming. I’m just still so enamored with her…but accepting the fact that she doesn’t feel the same way. It’s just tough.

/whatever.

Whatever the case, I’m still trying to get over it.

MiH