I wish I knew what it was that I was looking for.  I guess that it would be nice to just be content with every day instead of needing something to focus on…but I guess that’s asking a bit too much. 

The working out went well the morning.  When I entered the gym there were people on MY eliptical machine but I handled it well.  Using another machine didn’t bother me as much as I thought and soon I was focused on finishing rather than which machine I was on.  Taking a shower in the morning isn’t as big of an inconvenience as I thought it would be, in fact, it’s nice because there is no lolly-gagging.  My muscles seem to be responding and I’m getting stronger again, which I love.  The next thing I need to work on is stretching, which I’m sure will help.

I’m still a bit unsettled though.  The next few days/weeks are going to get worse and I’m hoping to have the strength and discipline necessary.  I’m definitely feeling pressure, coupling this discipline with a stressful situation will prove difficult, but I’m tough.

Anyhoo…off to lunch!

MiH